My family

STUDIO REMODELING (part 2)

Today is a sad day for me. Lots of things are going through my mind, like a tornado:

  • My mom is a little bit sick in Argentina, and I'm not there to go with her to the doctor. She is 82, struggling with her hip and she's in a lot of pain to walk.
  • I am in my days; and with 47, only imagine. There are a lot of symptoms new for me.
  • It's raining like crazy for 9 days nonstop here. I don't remember in my 6 years living in Florida so much rain together... Hey Miami! What is going on?
  • Today everybody left the room that soon will be my designing studio. My sister took her office and move it to her bedroom (her place is going to explode of things, what a m-e-s-s). My son Alex took his computers, gaming, guitars, drums and college books to his room too. His place is exploding, like my sister's!

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The den is empty now...

I feel terribly guilty, because I didn't want they HAVE to go away... I am going to miss all the chit-chat with Alex when he hung up with his friends and they were playing with his band of rock. Songs that he sang for me; songs that I love and made me dance while I was sewing. Also will miss my sister coming from Bloomingdale's and preparing all kind of papers for the bridal's department and talking and worrying to meet the plans and budgets she has been given (she's the manager). 

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And I say to myself; Patricia, are you dumb? You are preparing everything to get the design studio of your dreams and you feel guilty? I try to cancel the word sad from my mind every time it appears. But like every other human being, some days I wake up like... down.

This is how I feel now: sad, guilty... I look at the rooms now and all I can see is emptiness. Yesterday was joy and happiness because we decided with Walter to make it now, because we are in between collections and shows. But today is loneliness.

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And I miss my mom... she's the best. Did I tell you that she's coming next month? I'll feel better when she's here with me. I will call her tomorrow to see how she did with the doctor.

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Tomorrow I'm sure I'll feel much better (will have to start to get used to all this space for me alone). Many decisions have to be made in the morning, many plans. Shopping for furniture, floors (in the afternoon the come to install it). Colors for paint, and... the inspiration board! In fact, now that I'm writing this I'm starting to feel a bit better. This thing of talking to you through my blog is such a nice feeling and your comments will make me feel better too.

I have so many things to plan...

Planning for the future, always planning nice and better things...

 

With love,

Patricia

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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY AND HAPPY WINNERS' DAY TOO!

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Yesterday was Mother's Day. I want to congratulate all the mothers that participated in this give-away and all the mothers in the world. Thank you SO MUCH for all your answers, comments, and stories. They are very nice and inspiring!

Let me share a little bit with you how I feel about motherhood:

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There are no words that can even begin to explain or describe the word "MOTHER". All the beautiful things they give us everyday start to be imprinted in our hearts since we are born. The best feelings and the behavior we show in life as persons are chiseled in our souls by them, by their "LOVE", "DEDICATION" and "VALUES".

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I don't even remember how many good things my mother taught me throughout my life. Millions. And for that reason alone I feel devotion to her. This is how strong families are built. By teaching values, thoughts, deeds. To continue the work of God. This is how my mother raised me, and this is how I raised and continue to raise my son Alexander. And not because times are different now I teach him different things. No, no. I teach him the same way my mother did to me. Some things (honesty, goodness, to be close to your family always, respect for our elders, friendship) never change...

It's a process of constant building, that shows results after a very long time. But it shows. If you sow everyday a little bit, it shows. Look at this lovely picture:

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My mother and my son

I love my mother SO MUCH and I miss her. She lives half of the year in Argentina and the other half here in my house. She will be here by mid July and spend all the Holidays with us.

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Although she's 81, she keeps traveling back and forth. She says: "I want to be with you always", and because she has a very bad hip, makes her travel process very hard. But she continues to do it. I admire her.

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I love my son SO MUCH. Since the very first moment I got him in my arms, I started planning a happy life for him. A good life. The best life. I'm not saying to be a millionaire, have AAA+ grades in the best college in the country and bragging about that. No. I'm not talking about that things. I'm talking him to be an honest, decent, good family man.

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I don't know if I love him that much because he is the only one that God gave me after 2 miscarriages and years of fertility treatments; so much was involved until I could delivered him, so much time waiting and praying... The best day of my life. Or because God almost take him away from me when he was 9 years old and we discovered that he had kidney cancer. I remember the doctor telling me that bad thing... The only mention of the word "cancer" makes me start crying again. How much did I suffered... how much did I pray... I think I prayed SO MUCH that He listened to me and here he is, about to turn 20. I LOVE him for everything he is... I am extremely happy!!

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With these thoughts I don't want to impose any beliefs on anybody. You don't have to agree with me either. This is just how I think...

Now, changing a little bit subjects: HAPPY WINNERS' DAY!

I told you in my give-away post that I will choose randomly between 6 winners. Well, after 524 -WOW!- answers to my questions, here are the lucky ones:

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Denise Felton

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Me? A mom?

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Congrats to all of you!!

One little sad note about the winners: because I'm leaving for Pittsburgh tonight, I will find impossible to ship the fabrics today... I didn't even pack my suitcases with the clothes I will wear to the show yet! And we have to start loading the van with all the samples, booth display and everything we have to take to travel tonight!! Soorryyyy... I will e-mail each winner later and will ship the fabric when I come back from Market. Hope you understand...

Now, I am running against the clock, so I better get myself off the computer to finish things! I promise to tell you everything about Market after I come back... Kisses to everybody,


Handmade rocks...   So let's keep on stitching!

Patricia


THIS IS A VERY PERSONAL POST

I don't know how to start and I don't want it to make you sad. Maybe you don't want to know or is not of your concern. But now that I'm recovering from the initial shock and my pain is a tiny bit less, I feel the need to write about it, and to give her this space.

My mother in law, Maria Ester Sabartez, passed away last Tuesday, March 31. She lived in San Pedro, a small town 110 miles north of Buenos Aires, Argentina. Many of you know that is my native country.

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Grandma and grandson

This post is to pay homage to her. She was a fighter, she loved life, and --because life was never easy to her-- she had more willing power that many people I know.

She taught me so many things in 26 years we shared together, but especially when she came to make me company for the first 4 years of my life in this country. We shared so much stitching and so much knitting back then!! Then, she moved back to Argentina; but her dedication to all of us and her lessons are countless. I don't know, but now, with each day passing, I am taking more and more into account the magnitude of things she represented to me. I am going to miss her so much...

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My son Alex and my husband traveled there for her funeral and that makes me very happy, her only grandson and he could be with her at her final moments.

I don't understand why she left us so soon; she was only 62. It's going to take me a while. But what I am sure about is that she is close to Jesus, and this comforts me.

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I love you. Rest in peace. Amen


Patricia


MY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY...13 DAYS LATER

You may think how far behind am I. Yes, incredibly, but true. How can I post one of the most important dates of my life that late!! On March 8th, we celebrated our 24th wedding anniversary! Oh my god... so many years, so much happiness!

But, it's better late than never, right??

For my defense, I had a few reasons; and without even noticing, the days went by. We are finished partnering with MATERIAL GIRLS QUILTS kits for a new quilt that my friends at QUILT MAGAZINE made for their next summer issue. I don't know the name yet, but this is how it will appear on the magazine: (thanks Deb for the picture, you are awesome!)

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I love it! It was made with my Botanica Collection.

Another reason was the preparations for a great quilting show, Pour L'Amour du Fil, that will take place in Nantes, France in April 24-26. I am very happy that Art Gallery Fabrics will be the sponsor!! I will be talking about this show in future posts.

With all this work to be done and more, I didn't realize that today is the 21th!

Well, like I told you at the beginning of the post, I am now happily married for 24 years!! We are so happy... I think that we were made for each other, we are soul mates.

We went to Cheesecake Factory, and this time we wanted to be with our family.

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We invited our son Alexander and my dear sister Andrea. She lives with us after her divorce. You see, we are a very close family. I have a big house with 8 bedrooms, so for me it's a pleasure that she's with me. We share everything...

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Here we are with our son Alex

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And I ate one of my favorite dishes: Chicken Picatta!

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We had such a great time! When we came back home we looked at our wedding album and so many memories came to my mind. I can't describe with words the happiness my heart have felt through these 24 years. Two that became one. One we are for everything in life...

Handmade rocks... so let's keep on stitching!!

Patricia


MY SON'S SECRET IS FINALLY REVEALED

My son has a touch of magic in everything he does. And each surprise that he gives to me is like one of those touches…

The other day, a special box -very big- from UPS arrived to our house; they asked me to sign and I did. When my son Alex came back home from college, I asked him: “There is a box with your name in it from UPS, did you ordered something special?”
“Yes, it's a computer in parts that my friend bought for himself, and I am going to put it together for him.” Since he already have friends ordering several computers in which he buys all the parts separately and, later he assembles them, I thought that was kind of the same thing.

After one week, one evening I was working in my studio, and Alex asked me to go to the kitchen. When I went there, what was my surprise, that I saw the -"for his friend"- computer, with a big fabric bow, and - my husband and my son saying very loudly : “congratulations!!!” I did not realize for one moment that the computer was for me (the desktop I have now was a little slow, and digital files now days keep growing). 

He is my pride. He does magic…

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I was soooooo happy!!

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Sorry about this one with my son, it's a little blurred...

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So now I can keep up designing!!


Hand-made rocks, so keep on stitching....

Patricia


Beautiful memories

I would love if you start getting to know my family a little bit....

Here is my son Alexander when he was 10. I can't believe he's 19 years now!

He is enjoying summer vacations, and this photo brings back so many beautiful memories to my mind... I'm so proud of my son :)

This picture was at our house in New York. See yah!

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